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Saturday, February 14, 2004
 
It is Valentines Day. My good friend, who not only inspired me to start this site but seems to always encourage me to keep writing, has been waiting "patiently" all day for me to write on today's national holiday. Actually, he has managed to bug me all day and ridicule my devotion to "priorities". In truth, priorities are certainly never on my mind, and the stack of computer printouts to my side have yet to be scribled on with physics equations as they should be. But I love the guy, and I will keep my promise to write this by tonite.

Thats right I love another man. He may not know it, but I have opened my soul up to him with problems many times. He honestly cares about his friends, and that is a rare thing. I love Ben Ray.

I love my Mother and Father. They raised me in a loving home, and they never put anything higher then our family. More then love for me and my brother, the love and honor they have shown eachother has set a great example to me. It wasn't always eazy, but in the end we are a family.

I love my brother. He is the one person I can say I have been around since he was born. We have been together for 18 years as of yesterday (his Birthday), which is probably why we can't stand eachother sometimes. No one has ever made me laugh as hard as he has, or brought me more joy when I made him laugh. We are not going to be able to laugh together as much as we have in the past, now that we are older, and I am going to miss that. I love Cooper.

I love Chase Gardner. He is my other brother, not by blood, but in spirit. He has made me madder then Hell sometimes. If making fun of me were as sport, this guy is a professional. But we are kindred spirits, and when the jokes stop, I know he cares. He feels my pain, and I love him.

I love Jamie Yount. I just realized this recently. I haven't spoken to her in awhile or much at all, but we are "bff". I know now that James is my friend for life, anytime I need her, I can count on her.

I love Katie Edinger. Her and Jamie wouldn't leave me alone in middle school, it was inevidable that we would become friends. She hasn't stopped "leaving me alone" all these years, and I know she won't. I love her for that.

I love Abby Rigney. Some would say we have a "love-hate" relationship. We always seem to end up rubbing the other the wrong way. I have gone from wanting to date her to wanting to hate her and all the range of emotions in between. But I never really hated the girl, and I think I always loved her and always will. She is my friend, and I can count on her for anything. That is rare, and I am amazed that I can say that about so many of my friends, and I love them for it.

I could go on about those who I love, but then I would be writing all night. When it comes down to it, besides an "southern beauty" in South Carolina and a "Fuzzy Dude" in Kentucky, these are the people I love and surround myself with most often.





I saw the perfect movie last night to put me in the mood for this holiday, Love Actually. It reminded me that "love actually is everywhere". You can think what ever you will, but I think today was about expressing love. I was in the lump with all the single people out there that were fast becoming depressed by the approaching holiday, 'til I realized that I may not have romantic love, but there is love in my life. I hope that I have made my point with the message of love I shared with my family and friends above. I am glad that I could express my feelings to them, even if I wrote it in this little webpage.

Valentines Day made me take note of my feelings, but they were always there. Love is all around use, but we can't see it. Sometimes we even ignore it, or call it something else because the world "love" is taboo. We deny it but love is really what drives this world. Greed and compition have led to progress in mans world, but not in God's. Love is what makes use human, and the less we show it the less we are what God made us to be. Love is why God created use. God is love, and I know that it pleases him greatly to see us love one another.

I love God with my whole heart and soul, because I know he loves me with even more than that (John 3:16). I want to show him that kind of love! And one way to do that is to show my love for the ones I am blessed to have in my life.

Your aim should be love. Do not let love be confined to a holiday or a moment. I am not the best man to preach that love should be embraced. My heart has never been one of joy and love, but everyday I am letting God into my heart more, I am letting love in more. Try to let love become a bigger "priority" in you life, and see if it doesn't bless you.
Happy Valentines Day!!!!

Jesus said: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is just like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments." -Matthew 22:37-40

Song of the day!: This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...

Five For Fighting, "100 Years"
*This is one of my favorite songs at the moment, and I think that it is an appropiate song for this holiday. Love is one of the few things in this world that is eternal. Think on that a moment.


Thursday, February 12, 2004
 
I am lost as to what to write about today. I have to avoid studying for my Naval Science exam somehow!!! I have notes written down all over this desk for ideas for posts. I don't seem to be in the writing mood today, after writing a C-programing code for like four hours straight last night. (ugh) However, I am going to give one idea a shot.

The Superpowers Prayer:
When I was a little kid, like seven maybe, a couple of Superman movies and waaay to many Saturday morning cartoons had me craving a more fantastic world. Just like every kid at that age, I had to get me some of those superpowers. I was usually the green ranger or a wizard when I played with my friends (give me a break, I was a little kid). Actually, don't tell anyone, but I think I would still like to live in those worlds of fantasy. That is probably why I like the show Smallville so much. (I am sooooo adding a link to that site, now that I think about it)

Besides being the coolest thing in the world, superpowers make everything easier. I know that sounds crazy. "Brandon, when you can bench press a truck or fly through the air, you might draw some unwanted attention from like government probes or guys with guns." (sorry for using the word probe, it will get better, promise).

When we were young we were innocent, and it was great. All we wanted to be was something special. Every child wanted to be a superhero, a king, a princess, the president, a soldier, or something important like that. I even wanted to be the garbage man at one time. Not much thinking involved in that one; I just liked the truck.

A couple of times, in my ignorance, I prayed to God (like he was Santa or something) to give me a superpower of my very own. As time passed, I matured a bit in faith and in life, and began praying a new prayer. I am still selfish, asking God to give me something, but, every now and again, I pray for the Lord to bring a good Christian woman in my life. I don't pray for superpowers anymore; I pray for a wife.

Childhood was a special time, where we were truely innocent for a time. I fantasized about a world where I was faster then a speeding bullet and able to leap tall buildings in a single bound (weeee), but, now that I am growing up, I fantasize about romance and love. I believe both are beautiful ideas, and I would not want to think in any other way. But, as time has past, reality has revealed that I can't play "cowboys and indians" or "wizards and witches", they simply aren't real. I fear that love will prove to be like the fantasys of my childhood, and experiences will prove that it too is not real. For now, however, I am going to enjoy the idea that one day I will find someone made just for me by God, and that we will be happy. Like I said, I would not want to think any other way.

So, for today, LOVE is real!! I can fly through the air, if I want!! And I can bench press trucks!!!

Song of the day!: This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...

Ace of Base, "Sign"
*Going old school! You know you like it. I totally sang to this in Chase's truck, and I am not ashamed to say it was fun.



Wednesday, February 11, 2004
 
My week continues and life goes on. One lab, one inspection, and one exam to go. Wish me luck!!

Of course, no matter how busy I am, I am always going to take the time to write a post. I really shouldn't waste so much time writing everyday, but I can't help it! Apparently, neither can my friends. Add two more names to the list of Shelbyvillians turned blogger. I made it a point today to check out my friend Chucks new posts, and, to my surprise, I found that my friends Katie and Abby have begun there own blogs as well.

I blame myself. I just make this blogging thing look too cool. Ha... Ha... Hum (cough). Well, I do think it is sign that both used the same template as me. (It has nothing to do with the total lack of selection in Blogger's templates)

Katie's blog has yet to take any form of which I could comment on. I think she felt the "peer pressure" and just started one. Her blog could go in any direction, she can be more random then me, totally silly for sure, yet she has a more organized and deep peace about her then some of her quirks would portray. I know one thing. I can expect to read some Spanish words! I may have to ask my RA Mike (Hunderan dude, really cool) to translate. I have no idea what her title means, but I am pretty sure one of the words means princess.

Abby's blog I will say that I like so far. She has embraced the fact that only our close group reads each others blogs regularly. She is making her posts a testament to "what was", with a mingling of her life now. Her memories seem to be her escape from any bad in her life, and she is writing them down and sharing them with her friends. I know that I miss my friends and "what was" as well; I will look forward to more of her retreats into the past.

The last one really made me smile Abby, I guess even when we were fighting we were having good times.

And could everyone stop writing about how I have a stupid mouth!!! I know that I write about it, but I didn't expect for everyone to get on the Brandon never says the right thing wagon. I do have my pride.

Song of the day!: This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...
Sarah McLachlan, "Black Bird"
*Got to thinking how I like this song, after looking at Abby's post. She mentioned the Beatles version.


Tuesday, February 10, 2004
 
Communication is the key to all relationships. And I can attest that communication with ones barber is a must! I told my barber to take more off the sides. This was a mistake; I did not specify what more means. As it turns out, more means "all" in barber language. I am now bald. Yes, bald. It is all about the communication people!! Must study now....

Song of the day!: Let us try this again... I write down song. This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...
Lit, "My Own Worst Enemy"
*When it comes down to it, we are responsible for 95% of the crap in our lives. I have like a five-o-clock shadow for a hair cut... sigh.


Monday, February 09, 2004
 
I bet you think I am going to try and write something profound. HA! You will be disappointed. Like I said, it is a miracle when I do that, and miracles don't happen that often. Well, everyday is a miracle.... that is another blog. I am crunched for time, and this is gonna be quick.

I am in the midst of a week of true toture. I will soon be faced with the first of three exams, all of which will be intermegaled with the usual labs and homework assignments. I sometimes wonder if God isn't laughing at me stressing so much over things that matter so little. Of course, this doesn't mean I won't stop, but it is a comfort at times to know that time on earth is brief and should be enjoyed. All I really have to worry about is my life in eternity, and I believe my faith in Jesus sort of clenches that.

I have no point to my blog today, but I have written down some words from a song I like on the bottom of this post. The words remind me of the presence of the Lord and comfort me.

Song of the day!: Let us try this again... I write down song. This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...
Train, "When I Look To The Sky"
* When I look to the sky
Something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
When I feel like I'm lost
Something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way.

Sunday, February 08, 2004
 
I am back!!, as I am sure no one will notice. My brief retreat from the world that is blogging has made me realize the true insignificance of this "soap box". I think part of me envisioned an audience (however small it may have been) coming to this page to read my thoughts, and maybe, just maybe, found something that entertained or moved them is some way. Now I see that perhaps this forum of self expression is for my benefit and mine alone. Not one of my friends (who are the only ones I could call an audience) seemed to be anxious for me to be writing again. This is actually not unexpected, but prompted the realization that I was never driven to write for others but for myself. In trying to express myself or my thoughts to an audience, I forced myself to review my life and even its meaning. This is can be quite a growing experience, that I think I should continue. I can only hope that with in this forest of thoughts there will be a meaning. Hopefully, I will find a way to bear my soul, and you will see a reflection that will move you in some way.

These romantic statements of growth and expression in no way foreshadow some change in my writing or in the genre of this site. I am, as ever, a goofy kid still trying to find himself. I will still complain to the world about my life, and I will continue to review the world in a random matter only few could appreciate. However, I am also, as ever, a tool of the Lord. I have spent my time, as I said I would, in silent reflection of my life, and I have spent time alone with God. I am still far from him, but each day I drown my "Old Adam" and try to live for his glory. I may have a "stupid mouth", but, even my friends will attest, that sometimes a miracle occurs and my lips form words of wisdom and clarity. I pray that God will let me use this "soap box" of mine to grow, but maybe to help you grow as well.

God's blessings. May the Lord grant you peace this day!!

"The mind of man plans his way, but the LORD directs his steps." - Proverbs 16:9
*I will write post as I always have. I will live my life as I always have. But now I know that I am not alone and that the Lord has a purpose for me. Use me Lord

Song of the day!: This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...
Michael Gungor, "Move Me"
* For my life is the Lords, and I want to please him.



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