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Cuter With My Mouth Closed
Saturday, January 17, 2004
 
I am trying to get a lot of my homework done this weekend, but it isn't coming along as well as I would like. I slept in four extra hours, and it took me way to long to read these two CS chapters. So you can see I do not want to spend much time on a post today.
I will leave those who find themselves at this site today with a quote. "The things you're scared of are usually the most worth while." I really liked this, and not just because Mandy Moore said it in her new movie Chasing Liberty. Yes, I am madly in love with Mandy Moore and want her to bare my children, but don't worry I am also aware that this will never happen. I am not saying teen movies have anything truly philosophical to say, even though I will admit that there have been some good movies made with the title of "teen movie". I am just saying this particular statement can be very powerful, especially for my friends of collegient status. Somethings can be scary at that all to important stage in life when the future turns into the present, and girls and boys become the women and men they want to be. (you know you are diggin' the imagery). Well, back to work.

Song of the day!: Let us try this again... I write down song. This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...

OutKast, "The Way You Move"
*cause it's got a kickin' beat yo!
Friday, January 16, 2004
 
I have never seen in my life, short as it may be
A man with two heads, much less three
But yesterday I was suprised to see
This tri-headed being
And whats more he was singing

I never thought about the sound
A three headed man could make
The harmony can be profound
If the three heads cooperate
And I must say his heads were great

*just a random poem
Thursday, January 15, 2004
 
I have a break between classes now, so I have decided to make a post. I find it odd that I constantly stress and complain about my studies, yet I always take time to write these damned blogs. Don't you?
The funny thing is I don't even have anything important to write about. I just came from an "initial interview" with my advisor for Naval ROTC, which went well, overlooking the fact that I wasn't in uniform (I forgot my shoes at home, oops). I am apparently an okay Midshipman, at least on paper. I sort of felt bad when he asked me how I felt about ROTC, and I basically said, "it didn't disgust me." Okay, maybe that is exactly what I said, but that isn't my point. I just wish I were more enthusiastic. I am motivated and interested unlike some, but I am just not the happy camper I usually am (well was). Sad isn't it?
'Something is missing, and I don't know how to fix it.' I promise I had this opinion before I listened to the song by John Mayer. I swear I am starting to obsess about listening to Heavier Things as much as I did when I got Room for Squares. Seriously though, I would like to know what happened. Were did the 'happy' go? Makes me wonder if I am really where I need to be.
I think I would be happier going to UK. I could hang out with Ben and other friends on the weekends. I would be close to home. I wouldn't have to deal with all this military crap. This may be paranoid, but I am truly bothered that by being in the military I will in a sense be giving up a degree of control over my life. Just a thought, maybe civilian life is the way for me.

Song of the day!: Let us try this again... I write down song. This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...

John Mayer, "Something's Missing"
*cause it is, but I don't know what.
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
 
Does any one else miss the Power Rangers. I am sure they are still on the air, but now they are probably the "Super, Space, Ninga, Monkey, Power Rangers" or something. I am talking about the orginal Power Rangers: Tommy, Jason, Kimberly (what a hottie!), and all those guys. They were like so cool. I thought the Green Ranger was the coolest. He was bad then turned good! That's heavy stuff for an eight-year-old. Just a random thought I had.

Oh, and college sucks.

Song of the day!: Let us try this again... I write down song. This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...

Michelle Branch, "Breathe"
*I am starting to crush on her as much as Mandy Moore. She can write on my Hotel Paper any time!

PS Ben, you need to start blogging slacker!
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
 
I'm going to say it again. "College stinks!" Evil has a new name and it is Physics 152. Not that the material is hard, no yet anyway, but they couldn't throw more assignments at me in one day, if hey tried. I am quite stressed. I have never liked looking at the big picture. I am more of the freak out over every little detail sort of guy. And boy do I have a lot of little details to freakout about now. My stress level just had a big spike. What does an ulser feel like?

Song of the day!: Let us try this again... I write down song. This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...

Evan and Jaron, "Crazy For This Girl"
*always liked that song; heard it today.

Monday, January 12, 2004
 
Welp, I am supposed to be doing homework, but I have this wonderful new distraction, a blog site!!

College is hard!!!! I shut my brain off for too long and I forgot the hell I went through last semester. And Happy New Year to me; It looks like the schedule I have this semester will be even more demanding. Hello!! I lost sleep with the last schedule. What do they want my kidney! I will give one up, if I could just drop one more class. I think that is a fair trade; my kidney for an A in Chemistry 124. It is in pretty good condition, my kidney. I drink so much water, I might be part fish. Plus, I don't really drink alcohol.
That's right! I don't "really drink". So I have had a few beers in my life, sue me. My friend Erin would have the one beer I had in front of her cause for my eternal damnation. Whiskey may have been invovled as well, but this isn't my point. The point is I am no less a Christian, and ,in reality, I am quite the goodie-goodie. I have never been drunk in my life, and currently have no plans to change this. I am also now determined to uphold the Lord's law as well as the state's. No more drinking for this underaged citizen! With the exception of a shot of Jim Beam on New Years Eve and a half a glass of champagne on New Years Day, I am still on the "high road".
I need to assess my taste it women. I just got over a girl that seemed to judge everyone and everything spirituality. This would be "Beer Girl". And the one I liked before her just seemed to plain judge me. This would be "Cuter With My Mouth Closed Girl". Yeah, and I bet you thought I made that up. Someone actually said that to me, though in her case you can never tell if she was kinding or not. "Lord take me now! I can't seem to get this down." Actually, life for me isn't so bad. I wouldn't say studying is my favorite activity, but it has its purpose. I have friends, even if they are scattered throughout the country, and soon the world. Good luck Shannon and Ryan, "BANGERANG!!!". The only thing I missing in my life is a girl, which I will leave at that. I think I am like my Grandfather in that respect. We both need a woman in our lives to feel happy, and I don't think there is anything wrong with that. Well, except the fact that it means I am not happy....
And I have to go. My how the time flies! Got to get crackin', 'til next time.

Song of the day!: Let us try this again... I write down song. This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...
Jason Mraz, "You & I Both"
*Just 'cause I don't got one, doesn't mean I can't dream I do.
Sunday, January 11, 2004
 
Hi all! I'm back at Purdue, and I'm in a writing environment more to my liking. I will try and be a little less quite then I have been.
I just went for a "sensational" run. This ,of course, in no way means I ran a great distance or an outstanding time, but that I simply had a good time. I know that sounds weird, but I will elaborate. As I ran through the campus I felt very comfortable; I felt right some how. A feeling my friends will attest I do not get quite often these days. I was surprised, because home is the only place that emotion seems to come over me. Maybe I am experiencing residual "break effects", but I am glad to be back at Purdue. Go figure! (And I even called this place hell once...oops)
I have already bored my audience with my views on "home", so I will let you make your own conclusions on that. I will simply share a personal revelation. My home seems to be in pieces now with some in Kentucky and some here. The two times in my life that I have moved, I have never allowed that to happen. I stopped thoughts of my old world, and allowed myself to make a new home. I dived in and didn't look back. The same is true of all the many schools I attended. I always made a new school a fresh start for me.
You see, as much as my Mom hates when I say it, I wasn't really happy with myself in youth. Really, what kid isn't selfconscience. When your small, all the little things can seem so big. And those changing hormones don't help. So with each move and with each new school I had a new beginning.
Funny. Me catching this now, but ,in this go around, I didn't want to start over. I liked who I was, and I liked where I was. That is why I didn't let go and allow myself to settle. But is seems my psyche is adapting to this new equation of things, and I am "putting my eggs in more than one basket". (I hope I used that saying right)
So what does all the nonsense above mean? I love Kentucky!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee BANGERANG!!
(I picked up some knew phrases over break)

Song of the day!: Let us try this again... I write down song. This song is one in which I enjoy. You can take the opportunity to find out if you enjoy it as well, or you can nod your head and go like this, "hmmmm, yeah, I like that one." These are the two options I prefer you follow. If the former is your case, then you can find some way to listen to it. I don't want to know how! (Downloading is illegal you know (wink, wink))
Today's song is...
John Mayer, "NEW DEEP"
*Listen to the words! They made me nod my head and go like this, "hmmm, yeah, I like this one".
'Numb is the new deep.' I do like that. On the other hand, I am not quite ready to follow that view completely. If I did, I might stop writing this blog. Since all I seem to do is 'try and find every little meaning in my life'.

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